Closer Than Real

BusDreams 

I have known you.
Your name has changed and your voice is new, but there is no one else it could be. Are you supposed to be a stranger now…is that what I’m expected to see? 
I wait in silence for you to say something, for fear that my lips will reveal what I try so hard to contain. A fool to pretend my voice lies in words, yet I know that if I release my hold for even a moment you would…

No.
I mustn’t think of it. Instead, my mind races to dispel you with questions, the answers to which I have already known. And when it’s breath, not voice, that satisfies I will learn once again that I have few defenses against the air. The touch of it glows deep within me, and in spite of myself I feel you.
Oh god I feel you.
Tell me it is real and I will not doubt. Show me again and again that nothing lies between the stars and the sky so I will quit looking. And when I stand in the rain, eyes closed as you shout out loud, I will welcome you once more. I will let the memory of you run down my face to seep between my lips and I will know…
You are not a dream.

 

3 Responses to “Closer Than Real”

  1. kyabean Says:

    Is that you? You inspire, are loved and my pride.

  2. santha Says:

    is that a picture of you? if it isn’t, it sure looks a lot like you! i have read everything and i am amazed. you are SO creative and it all comes out so beautifully in so many forms — poetry, prose, art…it’s awesome that you’re putting it all together on this site, and i can’t wait to see more. i’m trying to navigate back to see the charcoal picture now…
    (i love the buddha quote at the top, too — very fitting.)

  3. Paula Says:

    Thank you!!!! :”>

    you can always click lucid soul at top to return to the home page! ;)

    P.S. that is me on a bus in Vegas ….wanting soooo badly to come home lol
    I was watching those weird trams go back and forth

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